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Thursday 19 April 2012

MY HEART WILL TRUST

OCTOBER 08, 2008

8:03 AM



(My entry on this journal is a detailed story on what happened to me, the whole month of August. It was so long, I can’t type it down... (Hehehee... mangiras!) But, I summarized it...)

My last update was August 23, one month of no journaling! So many things happened to me. I was hospitalized a month ago. It was an on and off fever, and when it hit very high, my friends at the dorm, rushed me to the hospital. First finding was upper respiratory infection. My good friend Grace stood by me, and helped me during these times when I’m far away from home. She soon contacted my mom, and my mom immediately transported to Manila, after a little transaction to the Doctor, I was sent home to Pangasinan for my recovery... and when we were at Pangasinan, the findings on me was Dengue.

I had stomachache, high fever, vomiting... they ran different test on me, injected different drugs, drained blood, and so on and so forth... my platelets were dropping, since I cannot eat full well.

The doctor told me, that one drop of my platelet would mean blood transfusion. I guess that feared me so I tried to eat... by God’s grace, my health was soon improving... it was about 4 days, since the doctor finally said that I was ok for home medications.

My family was there, my church friends was there, my bestfriend was there... and they all prayed for my healing.

That event was the second time in my life that I was hospitalized. I remember not calling on to God, when I was really sick until my recovery. I didn’t bother to pray... I really didn’t... maybe because, what I felt was an abandonment from God. For me, He let me experienced those…

Through it all, God’s mercy is overflowing… He sent my loved ones to tell me, He loved me, and though I was thinking He left me, there was never a second that He did. Though I was thinking that He is punishing me for giving me sickness, I know He has reasons...

He let me know how much my family, my  friend’s cares for me. How blessed I am for giving them to me...

When I finally had my full recovery, at church... I offered up my praise and thanksgiving to God who gave me another life…



MY HEART WILL TRUST

Hillsong





I'll walk closer now on the higher way
Through the darkest night will you hold my hand
Jesus guide my way

O you mourn with me and you dance with me
For my heart of hearts is bound to you

Though I walk through valleys low
I'll fear no evil
By the waters still my soul,
My heart will trust in You [x2]

O You counsel me and You comfort me
When I cannot see,
You light my path

My heart will trust in you

When I first heard this song, I knew that I want to sing this song to God who was so faithful and true, who was always beside me, even though I don’t dare notice. I know deep in my heart that I trust Him, that it is Sovereign Will.

I remembered what You have done Oh Lord. Forgive me Lord, when during the times that I really need You; I failed to call upon Your Name and ask for help. But though, I failed, You know what I needed, you sent out my “friends” to show Your unfailing love for me, you use my friends to be able to feel Your love always for someone kike me.

You sent out my “family” who poured out their love for me. I appreciate the little and big things they had done for me. Thank You Father for them. Most of the times, I took for granted everything hat they are doing for me, Teach me Father to see and to give back my love for the, Thank You mostly Abba for Your unfailing love, even when I didn’t call You, You are always present.

Psalm 39:4-7

English Standard Version (ESV)



4 “O LORD, make me know my end 
   and what is the measure of my days; 
   let me know how fleeting I am! 
5 Behold, you have made my days a few handbreadths, 
   and my lifetime is as nothing before you. 
Surely all mankind stands as a mere breath! 
                         Selah

 6 Surely a man goes about as a shadow! 
Surely for nothing[
a] they are in turmoil; 
   man heaps up wealth and does not know who will gather!

 7 “And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? 
   My hope is in you. 

Thank You dear Father.

My hope, my trust, my life is in You... Amen

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