SONGS OF STRENGTH

December 25, 2010

5:46 pm

I'LL BE

Newsboys

If you're sinking
If you're losing control
And your heartache has taken it's toll
If there's things you've never thought before
Like you're all alone
Afraid that love won't come home

You will find me
I'm at the point of your breaking
Behind all the noise
When your world is
Darkest I can still see
Cause when there's nothing left
I'll be

I'll be

Like a small town
Talk is getting around
Now that you've found
A friend can still bring you down
And when their faith in you comes crashing down
Know that I'm still yours
I'll be the hope that endures

You will find me
I'm at the point of your breaking
Behind all the noise
When your world is
Darkest I can still see
Cause when there's nothing left
I'll be

I'll be the light to help you find
All the things you left behind
Wondering will love come back
I'll be whispering you're still mine
When loneliness invades your mind
You're gonna be all right
You will find me
I'm at the point of your breaking
Behind all the noise

You will find me
I'm at the point of your breaking
Behind all the noise
When your world is
Darkest I can still see
Cause when there's nothing left, yeah
Cause when there's nothing left
I'll be

"ON YOUR KNEES"

Newsboys

Lately, she's been thinking what her daddy said
How when you're winning, you got more friends
But are they your friends if you fall they're gone?
Something about those kind of people seems wrong

Who's gonna be there when the phone call knocks her down?
All of the steeples but she can't hear a bell sound
Jumps on a bus to head downtown 
And picks up the paper that's been blowing around, it says

When your heart breaks, He'll hurt for you
Dreams are out of reach, He'll pull you through
When you lose hope all you gotta do
Is get on your knees again

Not long now and you're gonna see
No mountain's too high for you or for me
Or fall too far if you can believe
And get on your knees, on your knees again

She folds up the paper and puts it in her bag
Knows she really needs a savior like that
Walking past her church just up the street
Says, "Maybe it's time to get on my knees"

'Cause He was there when no one was around
All of the people but no one made a sound
Thinks of her brother who's been feeling down
Pulls out the paper and reads it aloud

When your heart breaks, He'll hurt for you
Dreams are out of reach, He'll pull you through
When you lose hope all you gotta do is
Get on your knees again

Not long now and you're gonna see
No mountain's too high for you or for me
Or fall too far if you can believe
And get on your knees, on your knees again

You've given everything you've got
Still it's hard to believe
Love comes from the inside out
If you wanna be free

Ya gotta give your love and never stop
When you think about giving up
Get on your knees

When your heart breaks, He'll hurt for you
Dreams are out of reach, He'll pull you through
When you lose hope all you gotta do is
Get on your knees again

Not long now and you're gonna see
No mountain's too high for you or for me
Or fall too far if you can believe
And get on your knees, on your knees again
On your knees again, on your knees again

When you've giving everything you've got
Ya gotta give your love and never stop

In Christ Alone

December 25, 2010

1:21 am

IN CHRIST ALONE

Newsboys

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save

‘Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again

And as He stands in victory
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt of life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
‘til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand

Because... Honestly I'm Not That Strong

December 23, 2010

10:58 pm

Glory be to the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit…

For Thine is the kingdom, and the power and the glory forever.. amen.. Blessed be the Lord my GodWho causes all things to growWho is wise and profoundWho does just judgment Blessed is He who comes in the Name of the Lord.. May You be praised in the whole earthMay You be honored and reveredMay You be glorified in everything that we do or sayIn everything that we are Thank You for a glorious nightIt was for You and You aloneMay every eye seeMay every ear hearMay every lips professMay every heart believeThat You are God, the MessiahWho humbly came..To seek and save the lostAmen and amen! (2012 Christmas Concert-SMUMC)

“Lord, whatever our family is going through right now, teach us to trust, be still and know, lead us… Because honestly, I’m not that strong…”

IM NOT ALRIGHT

Sanctus Real

If weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of
Then "cool" is just how far we have to fall
And I am not immune, I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall

Can I lose my need to impress?
If you want the truth I need to confess

I'm not alright, I'm broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through, it leads me to You, it leads me to You

Burn away the pride
Bring me to my weakness
'til everything I hide behind is gone
And when I'm open wide with nothing left to cling to
Only You are there to lead me on.

'Cause honestly, I'm not that strong.

I'm not alright, I'm broken inside
Broken inside
And all I go through, it leads me to You
It leads me to You

And I'll move,
and I'll move,
and I'll move,
Closer to You (x3)

I'm not alright I'm broken inside
Broken inside
I'm broken inside, Broken inside
And all I go through leads me to You
Leads me to You

I'm not alright, I'm not alright
I'm not alright 

... that's why I need You.

(The start of healing, forgiving, and moving on..)

Hold my Heart

December 15, 2010

11:21 pm

HOLD MY HEART
Tenth Avenue North

How long must I pray, must I pray to You
How long must I wait, must I wait for You
How long 'till I see Your face
See You shining through

I'm on my knees
Begging You to notice me
I'm on my knees
Father, will You turn to me, yeah?

One tear in the dropping rain
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the Maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?

One life is all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Would You come close and hold my heart?

I've been so afraid, afraid to close my eyes
So much can slip away before I say goodbye
But if there's no other way
I'm done asking why

'Cause I'm on my knees
Begging You to turn to me
I'm on my knees
Father, will You run to me, yeah?

One tear in the dropping rain
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the Maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?

One life is all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Would You come close and hold my heart?

So many questions without answers
Your promises remain
I can't see but I'll take my chances
To hear You call my name
To hear You call my name

One tear in the dropping rain
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the Maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?

One life is all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Would You come close and hold my heart?

Hold my heart
Could You hold my heart?
Hold my heart

(remembered my friend when I heard this song..

A song from a broken hearted man who still wants to believe,

even though- there’s nothing left for him to believe)

The IELTS Result

December 04, 2010

3:53 pm

Saw my IETS result on the idp webpage yesterday. And my heart was joyfully glad! I passed!!

            Listening          7.5

            Reading           6.5

            Writing             7.0

            Speaking         7.5

            Overall             7.0

Funny thing, the day before yesterday, I was in the state of “questioning” of to what is my future… I can’t seem to see my tomorrow; I could not find rest and peace…

And then yesterday came, God gave me the answer to my future… “Yes my child, I am with You, even when to you, your future seems a blur”

When I am sad

You are my j0y

When I don’t know everything

You are my all

When I can’t understand

You are my wisdom

When it’s hard for me to trust

You always hold my hand

“child  I know you

And I care everything about you

I just want to be your everything”

EVERYTHING

Bebo Norman

When day is over 
I'll be the color in the sky 
If darkness lingers 
I'll be the flame that gives you light 
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/b/bebo_norman/everything.html ]
I just want you to notice 
I just want you to feel the same 
I just want you to notice 
That I just want to be your everything 
I just want to be your everything 

On my shoulder 
There is a place for you to cry 
I'll be your shelter 
When there is nowhere left to hide 

Sometimes I see you cry 
When you watch the sun go down 
You're magical, so beautiful, and I... 

When day is over 
I'll be the color in the sky

QUESTIONS ASKED

December 02, 2010

4:38 pm

When we cannot see our wayLet us trust and still obeyHe who bids us forward goCannot fail the way to show.Though the sea be deep and wide,Though a passage seem denied,Fearless let  us still proceed,Since the Lord vouchsafes to lead-Unknown

Psalm 25:4-5

King James Version (KJV)

 ⁴Shew me thy ways, O LORD; teach me thy paths.

 ⁵Lead me in thy truth, and teach me: for thou art the God of my salvation; on thee do I wait all the day.

Psalm 25:12

English Standard Version (ESV)

¹² Who is the man who fears the Lord?
    Him will he instruct in the way that he should choose.

Lord, its as if I don’t know which oath to take…

I am in the waiting

I don’t know what’s next in my life

All of my desires and prayers, You graciously gave… since You have given me what’s best for me.. I have nothing else to say…

But what about this “silence” Lord?

Its as if I could not see my tomorrow

I can’t even see my today ( or am just playing blind?)

Been trying to “see” through Your eyes

But Lord, it is so vast.. I could not comprehend

When I think of all my advice to my friends who seem to walk in darkness and confusions, I think of “me”.

-       Will I be able to “walk the talk”?

-       Will I be found faithful in my faith, in my words to You?

-       Will be true to You?

-       Will I doubt You?

-       Will I be bitter towards You?

-       Will I also walk in darkness, thinking that I am all alone?

-       Will I be able to see You through it all?

Lord I don’t know…

Even when I said all those things, I am too is asking myself: “DO I BELIEVE, REALLY BELIEVE?”

Lord what’s in my heart? Its as is I too, doesn't know the answer… but.. I am holding to You.

To where else I could trust but in You alone- who KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT ME?

Lord, I am just holding unto You..

Hoping, believing that all You said is TRUE.. (In my heart, I know You are… but teach me to extend beyond knowing- BELIEVING.)

QUESTIONS ASKED

When my future seems dark and gloomy

And I could not fathom Your ways

Even in this state of questions and doubts

Can You hear my whisper, can I ask You why?

Even my now seems confusing

My heart beating, yes but why rushing?

Knowing all Your promises, but sometimes

Find it hard to really believe with my whole heart

I know who You are, “The Great Alpha and Omega”

The “Great I am who I am”

All Your attributes and Names I know

But when testing comes, why I do always fail?

Is it because of little faith?

Or do I allow my self in lies?

Sometimes Lord, even the view is beautiful

But the road is rough and rugged

When i could reach my journey

Into where I should be

Will be found tired and weary?

Or content and happy?

Take a look at my life Lord

And what do You see?

Am I worth the “cross”

Or do You turn Your back in dismay?

But to where do I run to>

To where I could find answers that could still my heart?

It is only to You and You alone

You are my God, yes You are my God

Despite of it all, one fact remains

You “died” for me and that’s all that matters

To know that You loved me and always will

For who I am