LETTING GO

April 14, 2011

8:58 pm

LETTING GO

Jeremy Camp

Gripping arms so tight 
The security i have inside 
Knowing what is right 
Holding onto my cry 

Letting Go 
Of the things i hold so dear 
Letting Go 
Of all my pain and all my fears 
Letting Go 
Of the Things i hold so dear 
Letting Go 
Of all my pain and all my fears 

I have been brought to a place 
Where i want to give up everything 
Where all i can do is seek your face 
The brokenness i will bring 

Letting Go 
Of the things i hold so dear 
Letting Go 
Of all my pain and all my fears 
Letting Go 
Of the Things i hold so dear 
Letting Go 
Of all my pain and all my fears 

holding onto the things i deem so strong 
Holding on even though i know ive held on 
too long 

Letting Go 
Letting Go 
Of the things i hold so dear 
Letting Go 
Of all my pain and all my fears 
Letting Go 
Of the Things i hold so dear 
Letting Go 
Of all my pain and all my fears 
Of all my pain and all my fears 
Letting Go.

I am letting go, God.. letting go and letting God…

You control all the circumstances in and of my life.. you control the people I met and loved.. you control everything because You are the Sovereign God!

Despite of all the pain and hurts, despite of sadness and sorrows.. I will let go and be content in what You will Lord. To be content and at peace…in You..

To trust and believe that despite of it all, there is a God who is all-powerful, all-knowing, ever-presesnt God.. who holds the future, my future in the palm of His hands…

Knowing and believing for who You are and not just for what You’ve done… then I will be satisfied.. I am letting go, to whatever chains that hold me back.. I am letting go, and let You God run my life…

To whatever id Your will, be done in my life..

Have Thine own way Lord, have Thine own way

You are the Potter, I am the clay

Take me and mold me

To what and where You will…

I am letting go…

“Don’t ask God for what you think is good for you,

Ask Him what He thinks is good for you.”

Can I Have More of You

April 02, 2011

10:00pm

CAN I HAVE MORE OF YOU?

Kim Walker

Verse 1:
I give up trying to earn Your love,
I just look above, up to You.
My desire is to see Your fire,
Growing even higher than before.

Bridge:
Because You are good, beyond measure,
My heart longs to give You pleasure.
You fulfill all my longing,
And all my life I will sing:


Chorus:
God I love You and all You do,
Your joy lives inside and does me good,
Can I have more of You?
Amazing grace, how sweet the sound,
Oh, my God, You never let me down,
Can I have more of You?

Verse 2:
God I need You right next to me,
For my heart to be satisfied.
I decide how I live my life,
I've made up my mind, I'm livin' for You.

HOW HE LOVES US

April 01, 2011

9:25 pm

HOW HE LOVES US

David Crowder Band

(Verse 1)
He is jealous for me
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy
When all of a sudden
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
And I realize just how beautiful You are
And how great Your affections are for me

(Pre-Chorus)
And O how He loves us
Oh, O how He loves us
How He loves us all

(Chorus)
Yeah He loves us
O how He loves us
O how He loves us
O how He loves

(Verse 2)
We are His portion and He is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking
So Heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets
When I think about the way

FRIENDSHIP HARDSHIP

March 30, 2011

10:30 pm

Even though it is hard to have that perfect stillness, that perfect peace this day... thank You Lord, for making it through- (Guest Speaker: VDA Christian School, Bugallon, Pangasinan: Commencement Exercises)

Thank You, that though I have hardships Lord, thank You for giving me the strength to carry on... May I glorify You Lord...

“We worry about what a child will become tomorrow, yet we forget that he is someone today.

“Knowing what I know about life, I see value in continuing to teach these lessons to myself.”

“The future belongs to those who believe in the reality of their dreams. Believe in your dreams. With God all things are possible.”

“The secret to success is to do the common things uncommonly well.”

“Shout for the moon. Even if you miss it, you will land among the stars.”

And to us- me and Te lib…

“Silence is wisdom where speaking is folly, and always safe. Better to day nothing than not to the purpose, and to speak penitently, consider both what is fit and when it is fit to speak.

“If thou thinkest twice before thou speakest once, thou wilt speak twice the better for it.”

And silence is I think better for the both of us... much have been said and you can’t take back what you have said, even the words that might crush and hurt you. You can’t. It was said and done... you cannot undo the past.

And maybe, she is right... may be I am full of pride...maybe I am being “playing safe”... after all, she’s my bestfriend for more than a decade... she’s probably right, because she “should” know me.

But still Lord, i choose silence, even if silence means not going/ visiting her at the hospital, or even answering her phone calls or giving back anything…

Maybe I am proud, maybe I am... needed to rethink, and trace back... Back to where I and her should be...

If it’s because of my foolish pride then let it stay as “foolish”

If foolishness means finding your way back home… if foolishness means letting go of all the things that hurt you... If foolishness means being just a mere man who is incapable of giving enough understanding… then yes, maybe I am “foolish”.

Foolish to say “I can’t go on like this… unless… we truly change”

I know I have flaws, if it’s my fault, then I guess I am…

 But I am “prideful”, I don’t wanna talk yet… I cannot have those conversations over and over again.. I don’t wanna hear those accusations, those “truths” according to her.. those angry thoughts and words…

I hate to converse with all those kind of repeated words. I am tired Lord, I am tired… and I still need peace.. I need You Father.. Abba..

“my soul is restless until it finds its rest in Thee…”

Besfriend difficulties

March 28, 2011

11:00pm

Having a hard time Lord with my bestfriend... it was just little but because of insecurities, doubts, jealousy, dramas… it became large.

And I am sick and tired of her attitude. I’m sick and tired of having conversations na wala namang patutunguhan. I’m sick and tired of hearing accusations, of hearing some dumb thoughts, of hearing anything that is way beyond of the real issue.

I am having a hard time... As I look back 10 years ago, I continue to ask myself “where have we gone? Have we grown and changed for the better?”

And when I look at our today, the answer seems forlorn…the answer seems vague... and I’m tired of foolish fights, I’m tired of dormant minds, I’m tired and wearied…

I am tired Lord, I am…

Will I find You Lord in the midst of these? Will I find peace and silence? Will she find too?

May these times be a moment of self-realization for the both us. Whatever I say to her, it is accepted with different meanings… teach me to shut up Lord, I am tired…