May 11, 2010
I
need to talk to you about me.. about you..
May
pakiusap lang sana ako sa iyo…can we bring back the way we used to treat with
each other? Friends? As only friends? Nothing more.. nothing less..
Habang
tumatagal pa to, baka masaktan mo na ako.. I need to protect my heart, I need
to guard my heart, dahil wala namang gagawa nito kundi “ako” lang.
Remember,
noon we were just friends, we treat each other as friends, we care for each
other as friends care. And then one day, everything changed.
At
first, nagtataka ako kung bakit bigla na lamang may nag-iba.. and I like what I
felt.. someone cares for me as a woman, someone is treating me special..but I
know deep in my heart that this won’t last…
You
already belong to someone. You will not end up in many years with her if you
don’t love her.. there were times when you were “on and off” but, time proves that you still would want to
commit , you chose to stay with her and be with her even though it is rough,,
and I do admire you for that. Staying “committed” to your relationship.
And
long before when we were friends, you already made a choice. I always say that
“life is full of choices and you are
free to make your own choices”. Only few people can choose to stay and be
committed, and you are one of them.. I know…
What
am trying to say is… ayaw kong maging “hindrance” sa inyo. Ayaw ko ding
nahihirapan ka sa sitwasyon. You are not committed to me, hence, you won’t have
to choose between her and me.. but afterall, you already made a choice…
You
see your hand? It means you are staying with her… it means you belong to her-
and her to you.
Remember
what Pastor said in the pulpit “man
cannot be divided by two women. Isa lang ang naalis sa kanyang buto, hindi
dalawa.” And I was saying in my thoughts.. listen.. you should listen!
While we were sitting apart from each other…
And
I realized, we should be apart now from each other. It was a big realization.
God
was already parading the both of you in my eyes to tell me that you belong with
each other. God made the both of you for the both of you, not for me…
And
God is right.. He is always right! I knew it all along…
Moments
with you was one of the happy moments of my life.. even in just a little time.
If only moments could last forever.. but we both know that it is far too different..
and every moments has an ending.
You
belong with her.. and I hope and pray that I too belong with someone who could
truly spent moments with me until for eternity…
So
choose to be happy with her. Stay committed to her. Love her just like you always
do before our moment came. Be faithful to her, do not be lead astray. Hold her
hand and never let her go. Wag mong hayaang humawak ka pa ng isang kamay na
alam mo namang papakawalan mo din. Treasure her, her love to you… it’s a rare
find.
Lastly,
know that I am always your friend. I will always be your friend.
So
can we bring back the old times? As friends and only friends?
Isipin
mo na lang na nakatanaw ka sa gitna ng karagatan and then bigla mo na lang
nakita ang “passing ship”, gusto mo sanang sumakay dun kaya lang bigla mong
naalala “nakasakay” ka na pala sa barko.
Isipin
mo na lang na ako yung passing ship sa buhay mo. Wag mo sanang kalimutan na
“you are already on a ship”. Hindi mo na kailangan pang lumipat pa…