WHAT IF I STUMBLE

November 11, 2010

2:00pm

Dumating na ang kinakatakutan ko.. ang ma-convict sa mga ginawa kong “sins”. I know in my heart and in my thoughts that it is all wrong “a worldly birthday celebration”. I can not say anything.. I am “guilty” and “ashamed”.

This is what I just read from guru, sent yesterday:

A DEGRADING ALBUM

I really find this album irritating and unfit for true followers of Christ. A lot of young people look up to you. If you find celebrating birthdays with beer, wine, vodka, and videoke as worthy of imitation, then prepare for the younger generations of UMYF to do the same.. But if you will ask me, you need to post something on your wall that will show your disgust on this thing that you yourself has done. I don't care whether you drank or not. These photos are still creating negative impressions of you, a known worshiper of the only satisfying Being. It is a grave mistake and I am grieving for it.

My reply:

Guru...i know.. What else can i say...

I am just waiting for all of your rebuke..alam kong mkkta nio un.i know n my heart and mind dat doz r ol wrong- celebrating wid d world,but stil i did. And I am ashamed of what ive done..
"I have sinned against the Lord" thank u guru 4 ur rebuke,and im sorry dat ive cause u my sin a grief in ur heart..(pano pa kaya c Lord?) Dinumihan ko ang Pangalan Nia. It makes me think again of who am i really outside my of comfort zone- D CHURCH. It is still a struggle, a battle.. And d enemy is mocking at laughng at "me"
May God forgve me 4 wat ive done and purify me once more...
My heart is in great sorrow...

Psalm 51:1-4, 7-12

Create in Me a Clean Heart, O God

51  Have mercy on me,^[a] O God,
    according to your steadfast love;
according to your abundant mercy
     blot out my transgressions.
²  Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,
    and cleanse me from my sin!

³  For I know my transgressions,
    and my sin is ever before me.
⁴  Against you, you only, have I sinned
    and done what is evil in your sight,
so that you may be justified in your words
    and blameless in your judgment.

⁷ Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean;
     wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
⁸ Let me hear joy and gladness;
     let the bones that you have broken rejoice.
⁹  Hide your face from my sins,
    and blot out all my iniquities.
¹⁰  Create in me a clean heart, O God,
    and renew a right^[a] spirit within me.
¹¹  Cast me not away from your presence,
    and take not your Holy Spirit from me.
¹² Restore to me the joy of your salvation,
    and uphold me with a willing spirit.

(Guru sent it to me as a daily reminder that I stumbled and fall)

WHAT IF I STUMBLE

Dctalk

Is this one for the people? Is this one for the Lord?
Or do I simply serenade for things I must afford?
You can jumble them together, my conflict still remains
Holiness is calling, in the midst of courting fame
Cause I see the trust in their eyes
Though the sky is falling
They need Your love in their lives
Compromise is calling

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all?
Will the love continue when my walk becomes a crawl?
What if I stumble, and what if I fall?

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
You never turn in the heat of it all
What if I stumble, what if I fall?

Father please forgive me for I can not compose
The fear that lives within me
Or the rate at which it grows
If struggle has a purpose on the narrow road you've carved
Why do I dread my trespasses will leave a deadly scar
Do they see the fear in my eyes? Are they so revealing?
This time I cannot disguise all the doubt I'm feeling


What if I stumble, what if I fall?
What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all?
Will the love continue when my walk becomes a crawl?
What if I stumble, and what if I fall?

What if I stumble?
Everyone's got to crawl when you know that
You're up against a wall, it's about to fall
Everyone's got to crawl when you know that

I hear You whispering my name [You say]
"My love for You will never change" [never change]

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all?
Will the love continue when my walk becomes a crawl?
What if I stumble, and what if I fall?

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
You never turn in the heat of it all
What if I stumble, what if I fall?
You are my comfort, and my God

IS THIS ONE FOR THE PEOPLE, IS THIS ONE FOR THE LORD?