Waiting for someone who’s waiting for me…

APRIL 03, 2009

8:49 PM

Waiting for someone who’s waiting for me…

When I allowed God to use me, He brought me to a place where I could lay down all of me, and learn to follow Him. I was used as a living testimony of God’s grace to the young people of our church. And I pray that I will grow… I was growing... I am growing by God's grace… I came to know God more intimately than ever before…

As I was growing, searching for God, He revealed to me wonderful ways through His wonderful people such as Guru and Miss Anna. He used them for me to see Him truthfully. And their lives are powerful testimony, their commitment, their passion, their service- I was struck by them... and from  them, I came to welcome the “waiting process in my life”

TRUE LOVE WAITS… That I would wait for romance... I would wait for the right time that God would reveal to me who is my better-half.

I am 24, and still waiting... now, that someone is saying to consider courtship in our friendship- I am confused. I like him as a friend, and I loved how God works in his life, at his new found church... but I’m not too sure if “courtship” is the thing for us…

And so I needed advice... I seek Miss Anna instead of guru, knowing that she would better understand the struggles of a woman…

And she said:

‘ TLW ay pagpapakita ng trust sa sovereignty ng Diyos- na alam Niya at tinakda na Niya kung sino yung better-half natin. Basta ang tignan mo eh, kung mas mahal nia si Lord. Pag pumayag ka sa courtship kasi, may possibility na mafa-fall ka na sa kanya. Ready ka na ba na magpa-submit sa kanya just in case?

Kung ready ka na emotionally at spiritually, dapat pati ikaw nakikita mo na ready ka ng magpa-submit dun sa guy at maging suitable partner. Yung tingnan mo pag magiging kayo, mas effective ba kayo sa advancement ng Kingdom of God. Basta don’t base your decision sa emotion, physical appearance, kahit yung theological sounding nia.

Pray for an eye that you may be able to see his first love. Iba standard natin, we look for men who will make us their number 2. Masakit kasi pag yung mahal na mahal mong Diyos ay di ganun kamahal ng tinatawag mong “better half” mo. We are jealous for anything that would steal the glory of God, kaya dapat hindi tayo ang una sa heart ng mapapangasawa natin.

Keep your standards HIGH. And when I say HIGH, I don’t refer to the mere externals (theological sounding, good educational background physical looks, etc.) in the end, what maters is a man’s LOVE for the LORD that only overflows in accurate theological understanding and service to God.’

I thank God for the life of Miss Anna. Somehow, my questions were answered, the burdens have been lifted up… we texted a lot of things. Struggles in church, of how men ought to be leaders are lacking.

Miss Anna’s mentioned one of her many prayers- an accountability group for the Umc. Many women are struggling on their feelings... and we need mature women, to lead women, and mature men to lead men... Lord when will it be?

So Lord, back to my heart... will I allow him to court me… am I ready to be lead into a deeper friendship with him and find out if we were meant to be? I ask for Your wisdom and guidance Lord… please show me the way... what is Your will Father?

I do enjoy my time with You Lord, and You know that. But sometimes, when I’m left or feel alone, I wonder when will that time comes when You would show me the man You have created just for me. A man who will lead me into knowing You more and more, a man who loves You more than loves me. A man so full of compassion, of care, of sincerity, of joy, of laughter, of contentment... just a simple man who loves You Lord…?

Is it him? or is he just a passing ship for me to look upon?

Please show me… tell me what to say… deep within me, I do like him as a friend, but would that be enough to take the next step…? What is Your will Father…?

I will wait for You Oh Lord… my God...